8 ½ years.
A wonderful age.

You have been very special.
I love you and I'll never forget you.

Fuck you people who think you are better than others!
Fuck you and your bloody arrogance.
Go smash your head right through a wall before I do it for you.
You won’t have fun with that.
Just start smothering because of rain which runs down your lungs and trachea because you hold your nose up high.

Oh my gosh, I regret having not known more of the Metal Band Drowning Pool before.
Actually, I knew stuff, but didn't know they made it xD
The album "Sinner" sounds great from the first note on.
Of course, the song "Bodies" comes from that album, hehe. Love love love it right now.

I'm working on some stuff for the job in this exact moment and on one hand it feels really good. But on the other hand it's annoying to think about the upcoming stuff I need to do.
Sure, I told em I'd help and do some things at home because there's no chance of doing it at work due to .... resources. But how could anyone imagine it would become more and more. And more. Damn.

Something else: it smells like heaven outside. It smells green. Like trees, flowers, plants of all kind, mowed lawn...
Lovely.

Finally, I saw Disney/Pixar's movie "Up", "Oben" in German. People talked about the beginning of the movie as sad ... but I never imagined how sad it really is.
And not only the beginning. For me it was a journey between sadness, tears and happiness - with tears prevailing. I cried so many times like in no other movie before.
Maybe it's because of the bad cold I caught, maybe it's because tears wanted to come out to clean my soul, dunno.

In general, I liked all characters, though I had some problems with Russel because he's a kid - an annoying one - and I can't handle kids.
The two most adorable characters were Dug and Kevin. Most of all Dug. I'd definitely give him a place to live and to be loved, too! The dogs's animations, as well as Kevin's, were really really nice, it was so - have to use that word again - adorable how they moved and interacted. Especially the "squirrel!"-moments xD

Most touching was the story of Carl and Ellie. That's the first time when tears start rolling.
Don't know what else to say about them. When you watch the movie, just enjoy those two acting and reacting. It is so wonderful.

Maybe this movie striked a nerve in such an intense way because I'm still not able to deal with my grandmother's and grandfather's deaths, though it's been years ago - or it's just because it teaches a wonderful lesson of life again.

If you like to be emotionally touched "Up" is more than recommendable.


Meet Dug the dog

Believe me or not, the best time of the day is shortly before people in town wake up and the sky is still dark blue.
It's quiet, in spring you can hear birds singing, a small movement here, a little movement there - wonderful.

Until you have to get your ass to the job which isn't motivating at all. The job I mean.
So, I'd like to recite Drowning Pool with their song Bodies:

One - Nothing wrong with me
Two - Nothing wrong with me
Three - Nothing wrong with me
Four - Nothing wrong with me
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the floor
Let the bodies hit the flooooor


Hah, makes me feel better already :D

Good day to you out there and keep those floor hitting bodies in mind ;)

Same shit different day, haha.
Can I laugh about it? Yeeeees, I want to. HahahahahahahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Too sensitive and being remonstrated for it. Haha.
"We are friends, I'm by your side when you need me." HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Fuck it.
Pure hatred against mankind.
I really pity my parents. I'm sad for them because their daughter can't manage life yet. And I pity them because they cannot understand.
What to do with talents if you can't use them? If they do not let you use them? If you're too frustrated to use them?
What to do ...
I don't know.

We all know Hello Kitty but less of us know there is an Online-Game.
YES, I used to play it regulary and NO, I still don't like the color pink in all its forms :)
Anyway, found something today that's .... can't describe it. It just doesn't feel right in this oh so wonderful and harmless world:



Normally it's a big mushroom from which you can get some substances you need for quests. When there are no resources left it's getting small and you have to wait 'til it grows again.
PLUS, it sways .... which enhances the whole impression of the .... thing .... stuff ....
I don't know what to say (O.o)

Der Schluss dieses Artikels ist einfach köstlich xD

http://www.zeit.de/meinung/2010-01/familienpolitik-geburtenrate?mc_sz=newswidget.news


manchmal möchte man den Kopf einfach gegen die Wand schlagen

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I'd like to be a little bit drunk now .... just a little bit

Got my ass kicked today by a friend. And REALLY needed it xD
Last weeks have been .... strenuous. Or a bit frustrating because my energy was all gone, or both, can't tell exactly.
Fact is, I haven't done what I should have done. And of that a lot, unfortunately.

Started digitalizing another fanart, though I didn't finish the first one yet. Doesn't matter, have more fun with the second one anyway ;)
I tried to realize an image with my two most-loved characters of Dragonball Z, Vegeta and (Mirai) Trunks. Guess I'll also show it here when it's finished. Which still could take a while.

Apropos "still": these abstract and grueling dreams STILL dominate my nights. It's interesting on one side, but on the other ..... it's strenuous.
We've come full circle :D


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There's something I didn't realize before: how great these lyrics are - especially in ensemble playing with the arrangement - when you're in the right mood for them.

( something to believe in )

Have to create proper applications

Need to kick my own ass for that. Not motivated at all.
Don't feel like working with people at the moment.


Addicted to Dragon Age Origins

Love this game. The characters are utmost likeable (most of them) and the voice actors did a wonderful job.
Very nice are also the dialogues during your walks in towns and places without any action going on. Suddenly your chosen partymembers start talking with each other character-related which made me feel even more comfortable with this game.
Here are two extractions I can kind of remind.

He (former Templar): Why are you smirking?
She (older Mage): You're staring at her. Like you are captivated.
He: She is our leader. I see up to her.
She: And what did you see in those swinging hips?
He: (nervous) I saw nothing! I was just glancing maybe, but I wasn't STARING.
She: (laughes amused)
He: I hate you. You're a bad person.

He (Assassin): Do Templars here in Fereldon watch over the Sisters Of Andraste(?) the same way they do in Antiva? There, in my country, Templars look at the Sisters like jealous husbands guarding them from bad guys.
She (older Mage): Well, I guess it's the same here.
He: Oh, and is it true that the Sisters in the Tower of Magi do, when fullmoon rises, meet on the top floor, take of their clothes and make love with each other?
She: What!?
He: (sighs) I found out that this rumour isn't true in Antiva, so I thought it could be possible here. A pity.

Also very enjoyable is the talk between these two about her bosom and that it continually comes to it. To the talk I mean ...

By the way, Bioware's character-site is wonderfully made: http://dragonage.bioware.com/characters/war_dog
Recommended videos for laughing: Morrigan and Oghren (the end).


Pookie needs meds

Pookie-bunny's heart has some kind of irritation, means it doesn't beat like a normal rabbit-heart should beat, which also affects his lungs a bit. Maybe there's even a congestion of water near one ventricle. Thankfully it can be medicated and is not as bad as I first thought it would be.